msjessica's Diaryland Diary

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2022-06-25 - -
2020-04-20 - seven months sober
2019-02-03 - 888
2018-11-30 - I like your way
2018-11-05 - Pushing a piano up the stairs
2018-10-23 - Tell me why
2018-09-26 - is this it
2018-09-25 - sad sexy
2018-09-25 - Like a lightbulb babe
2018-08-21 - -
2018-08-07 - Mother
2018-07-25 - -
2018-07-06 - Zambrero
2018-06-23 - Dark spilling universe
2018-06-17 - Eurydice and reckoning
2018-06-12 - Way Over Yonder
2018-05-24 - -
2018-05-22 - Adaptation
2018-05-19 - Bleach
2018-05-18 - Songbird (Night Owl).
2018-05-16 - A jumble of Eurovision songs
2018-05-02 - My mothers hands
2018-04-25 - Love, be brave
2018-04-17 - Heavy
2018-04-13 - Prey
2018-03-29 - everybody needs you
2018-03-20 - Let me out let me out let me out
2017-12-03 - So why does it feel like I’m dying
2017-02-15 - Witching hours
2016-12-06 - The question
2016-09-09 - if you wanna leave, don't breathe a word
2016-08-28 - -
2016-08-20 - -
2016-08-20 - thinking about tomorrow
2016-08-20 - throwing a bucket of water on a bush fire
2016-06-14 - which way is up
2016-06-13 - Inevitability
2016-06-03 - no treatment no cure
2016-05-25 - flowers in may
2016-05-07 - if i ever instigated i am sorry
2016-05-01 - i love jesus but gee i learn a lot from satan
2016-04-19 - cancer
2016-04-11 - you might as well live
2016-04-02 - loneliness and isolation pt2 where i talk about a man and answer a question about love
2016-04-02 - loneliness and isolation pt1 where i do not feel
2016-03-14 - bossanova
2016-03-12 - thud thud my heart pumps blood
2016-02-27 - form themselves into streams
2016-02-16 - a certain time, a certain place
2016-02-01 - you don't want to kill yourself, you're a writer
2016-01-31 - -
2016-01-29 - Self care
2016-01-26 - -
2016-01-18 - reckoning
2016-01-05 - -
2016-01-04 - -
2016-01-03 - -
2015-12-23 - because i was born into it
2015-12-11 - cel u lar device
2015-12-05 - L-O-L-A Lola
2015-11-18 - everywhere, everywhere, everywhere
2015-11-15 - uncle bookmark
2015-11-11 - A friend of a friend
2015-10-30 - Empty
2015-10-26 - a good idea
2015-10-25 - and he'll say that i'm wrong, and be right all along
2015-10-23 - breathe
2015-10-17 - love song (youarenowhere)
2015-10-04 - the dance
2015-09-27 - i'll delete this
2015-09-26 - sexwitch
2015-09-19 - something in the way he moves
2015-08-13 - everything is everything
2015-08-07 - what do u see
2015-08-02 - woe is me (fuck everything)
2015-07-26 - white noise
2015-07-21 - drowned
2015-07-13 - Scrapbooking
2015-07-09 - pure
2015-07-07 - someone else's truth
2015-07-05 - i live in a box of paints
2015-06-26 - ever since
2015-06-23 - swim to me, swim to me, let me enfold you
2015-06-18 - you can''t be lost if you're not on your own
2015-06-09 - -
2015-06-05 - the junkie & the thief
2015-05-09 - the high priestess
2015-05-03 - the ocean
2015-03-28 - i couldn't post this on social media because i just felt too.... privileged
2015-03-08 - disconnection notice
2015-03-01 - bitter ramblings
2015-02-08 - danger, i never think of danger; i really am a lucky man
2015-02-05 - a southern bird that stayed north too long
2015-02-04 - your voice across the line gives me a strange sensation
2015-01-31 - i can see you struggling
2015-01-04 - gone from perfect to divine
2014-12-14 - all the trees of the field will clap their hands
2014-12-10 - but drinking cough syrup when you didn't have a cough is ironic, because in reality you're sicker than you thought
2014-12-07 - putting the damage on
2014-11-30 - sweet
2014-11-29 - children get older
2014-11-14 - blood flood (part II)
2014-11-08 - the weather licked her like a stamp
2014-11-04 - until there's not?
2014-11-04 - brain dump
2014-11-02 - karma
2014-10-31 - makes for an interesting ride
2014-10-20 - -
2014-10-12 - -
2014-10-09 - rushing on my run
2014-10-04 - -
2014-10-03 - pink section
2014-09-28 - [noise]
2014-09-15 - queue jumpers
2014-09-09 - welcome to the good life
2014-09-06 - Fire in your heart
2014-09-02 - moments of love
2014-08-31 - i am just a dream
2014-08-29 - sleep rules everything around me
2014-08-24 - -
2014-08-23 - Lovely abyss
2014-08-23 - Lovely abyss
2014-08-20 - MEntal healTH
2014-08-02 - is she good to you
2014-07-31 - Goal Reality Options Will
2014-07-29 - tonight
2014-07-28 - dusty screens
2014-07-26 - it was me i cut but you bled as well
2014-07-24 - i will
2014-07-23 - the lights divide us
2014-07-17 - modern man
2014-07-15 - you freewheeling troubadour
2014-07-11 - friends in danger
2014-06-26 - vacation
2014-06-22 - three legged dog
2014-06-20 -
2014-06-15 - i will be your ghost
2014-06-14 - give up the ghost
2014-06-04 - 100g per week
2014-05-21 - crosby, stills & nash
2014-05-15 - -
2014-05-14 - scream and shout until we work it out
2014-05-12 - unfinished at 20140514_2315
2014-05-08 - better fought than won
2014-05-06 - time
2014-04-27 - before butterflys wings
2014-04-25 - noone has seen or heard from him since last wednesday
2014-04-19 - other
2014-04-19 - talk is cheap my darlin
2014-04-17 - talking in (dizzy, dumb, drunk) circles
2014-04-15 - armoury
2014-04-14 - u rock the mic but u ain't sayin nothin
2014-04-13 - htrk
2014-04-08 - -
2014-03-19 - brave
2014-03-19 - waitin g
2014-03-10 - shoot (for) the moon.
2014-03-08 - self talk
2014-03-05 - i could be there now if you'd just invite me
2014-03-05 - loose ideas
2014-02-22 - -
2014-02-20 - -
2014-02-20 - you weren't fooling anyone
2014-02-18 - i am a master hunter
2014-02-03 - don't tell the driver
2014-02-01 - she only sang the dead bird songs and now i know em all
2014-01-12 - i'm not that hot new chick
2014-01-04 - only sour cherry on the fruitstand
2013-12-14 - the wide, wide world
2013-12-12 - -
2013-12-03 - tuesday night, after therapy and cleaning
2013-11-09 - black mirror
2013-11-02 - kill only the time that truly deserves to die
2013-10-27 - time the revelator
2013-10-16 - -
2013-10-16 - am likely just bored
2013-09-16 - thank you naivety, for failing me again
2013-09-15 - like a cat looks into a fishtank
2013-09-05 - nine eyes
2013-09-05 - diamond dancer
2013-07-12 - here i go again
2013-06-30 - free yourself
2013-06-23 - Say goodbye to love
2013-06-09 - what can i do
2013-06-06 - -
2013-06-05 - something other than regret
2013-06-03 - -
2013-06-03 - she's always got last summer
2013-05-31 - can you tell there is something better cos you know there always is
2013-05-28 - wikipedia is heaven
2013-05-26 - portraits
2013-05-25 - i am loathe to say
2013-05-23 - victim of romance
2013-05-21 - once i was an eagle
2013-05-20 - today has been ok
2013-05-19 - instant crush
2013-05-18 - Bored in the city
2013-05-14 - diaryland
2013-05-13 - for you, when you get here
2013-05-12 - Everything Illuminated
2013-04-24 - perpetuum mobile
2013-04-18 - love in the time of
2013-04-17 - -
2013-04-15 - Half a pound of sugar
2013-03-21 - shriek to speak, and reach for the speech to be heard
2013-03-16 - i'm walking into walls just to be where you ought to
2013-03-16 - -
2013-03-13 - blah blah blah love rant and whinge blah
2013-03-12 - i see you upon the wall
2013-03-10 - bury me in my favourite yellow patent leather shoes
2013-03-03 - it's passion it's not love, infatuation never ends up right, at least i won't be alone tonight
2013-03-01 - happy and bleeding (what i would rather)
2013-02-28 - it's too hard to row a boat using a periscope
2013-02-25 - By the time I get the courage I am drunk and you are tired
2013-02-19 - -
2013-02-16 - anomie.
2013-02-13 - this is a sad fucking song
2013-02-09 - i've got love in my tummy and a tiny little pain, and a 10 tonne catastrophe on a 60 pound chain
2013-02-07 - i will be king, and you, you will be queen.
2013-01-27 - Second guess it
2013-01-22 - little hell
2013-01-07 - "i need you like blood needs a vein to get from one place to another"
2013-01-05 - -
2013-01-03 - the sun the sea you and i
2012-12-31 - never going to be easy.
2012-12-31 - an almost loss.
2012-12-31 - -
2012-12-31 - photosynthesise.
2012-12-30 - Vom
2012-12-28 - -
2012-12-28 - I love you like a violin, I'll hunt you like an amputee, But I ain't gonna lose my skin, I would love to see you again
2012-12-26 - you take up all my time, you've gone from perfect to divine
2012-12-18 - i woke up alone
2012-11-16 - Wouldn't mama be proud.
2012-11-16 - -
2012-11-16 - postcards from italy
2012-11-16 - -
2012-11-14 - human kindness.
2012-11-14 - I have more to say, I'll be back soon.
2012-11-12 - -
2012-11-10 - what he wrote
2012-11-10 - Being sky king of the sky, what did he have to fear
2012-11-09 - A girl like me
2012-11-08 - bill callahan
2012-10-24 - -
2012-10-24 - fuck you in your fucking face.
2012-10-24 - this is the day people like me have been waiting for.
2012-10-23 - -
2012-10-21 - -
2012-10-19 - Laura Marling = <3
2012-10-19 - prescilla
2012-10-16 - what you had and what you lost; what you are and what you're not
2012-10-06 - -
2012-10-05 - -
2012-09-20 - -
2012-09-13 - ticklish
2012-07-29 - -
2012-07-26 - Just rubbish really
2012-07-23 - keep your head up, keep your heart strong
2012-07-20 - The things you made me do
2012-07-09 - -
2012-07-06 - -
2012-07-04 - that's fucking bullshit
2012-06-30 - What's wrong with you?
2012-06-29 - -
2012-06-28 - bananas
2012-06-20 - -
2012-06-20 - Decadent Playground
2012-06-20 - -
2012-06-19 - -
2012-06-19 - better decision making processes
2012-06-16 - tarantula
2012-06-16 - -
2012-06-14 - -
2012-06-11 - Just nothing
2012-06-08 - o'malleys bar
2012-06-02 - Fucking yum,
2012-05-23 - be still, be calm, be quiet now
2012-05-10 - we are united
2012-05-08 - sugar and spice
2012-05-08 - damn your mood swings
2012-05-08 - -
2012-05-08 - -
2012-05-08 - what's more romantic than dying the moonlight
2012-05-08 - feel no shame for what you are
2012-05-07 - -
2012-05-06 - -
2012-05-03 - i've got a sneaking suspicion that i'm under
2012-05-02 - there's something about
2012-05-01 - -
2012-05-01 - -
2012-04-24 - -
2012-04-24 - -
2012-04-23 - my selfish heart is alone tonight
2012-04-14 - don't look ahead there's stormy weather
2012-04-09 - -
2012-04-08 - -
2012-04-07 - like a rainbow
2012-04-01 - -
2012-03-30 - -
2012-03-25 - skin on skin
2012-03-25 - someone's in the wolf
2012-03-25 - like a drug
2012-03-25 - -
2012-03-25 - It's a luscious mix of words and tricks
2012-03-24 - beckoned me ahead
2012-03-11 - -
2012-03-11 - enough said
2012-03-09 - Thought
2012-03-07 - exactly one
2012-03-07 - inhuman
2012-03-07 - -
2012-03-07 - -
2012-03-07 - i'm not rich, i'm just nice
2012-03-07 - sleepy crush
2012-03-01 - -
2012-02-28 - paper tiger
2012-02-28 - -
2012-02-28 - -
2012-02-25 - slays me every time
2012-02-23 - loneliness, truth, beauty & a picture of you
2012-02-22 - james dean
2012-02-18 - oh dear
2012-02-16 - -
2012-02-15 - simple pleasures
2012-02-15 - shadows
2012-02-15 - ain't no good
2012-02-15 - save yourself
2012-02-14 - with your animal
2012-02-14 - u go ur way, i'll go myne
2012-02-14 - they stone you when you're walking on the street
2012-02-14 - creature of mercy
2012-02-12 - all wrong
2012-02-12 - why can't i be you
2012-02-11 - -
2012-02-09 - such an intent stare
2012-01-28 - things i thought while preparing for my first AA meeting:
2012-01-28 - -
2012-01-28 - all & everyone
2012-01-25 - Who wouldn't
2012-01-23 - there were no survivors
2012-01-21 - over you
2012-01-21 - not even joking
2012-01-21 - some unrighteous intention
2012-01-20 - turn it into something so good
2012-01-20 - strung out in heavens high
2012-01-20 - -
2012-01-20 - you
2012-01-19 - Bring It On
2012-01-19 - but this is long enough
2012-01-13 - -
2012-01-10 - the words that maketh murder
2012-01-10 - Don't Explain.
2012-01-09 - backsliding