msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- free yourself i am in a really fortunate and beautiful place at the moment. these are not the usual times that i write about, sitting smoking a cigarette i thought i should also document the positive times in my life, rather than just having this record of my dark and desperate days. - the job thing is amazing. but also i have fallen in with beautiful people around me. old relationships that take on new forms, having their own evolutions, residual drama's that effect me less because i have the freedom/choice to not be so overwhelmingly invested. also, the NEW people i have in my life in this city. coincidences tying them together - love this feeling of knowing in this large country there is a certain community i belong to - i don't know what it is - i guess "alternative" is the best, most blanket term to give it. but there are people of a certain persuasion and it seems that there are overlaps and the more places i go, the more faces i see and names i know who share stories tales experience from same places faces etc etc i like the feeling of a country/world becomng closer and smaller. - tonight went to some noise gig/house party things. contributed my first piece to the "melbourne street art" scene (a terribly drawn octopus on a brick wall in "international orange"). watched steve albini guest program rage while discussing polyamory with my new house mate. tomorrow i'm going to a "poly-vic social" which should be interesting/enlightening/intriguing/something. pharmaceuticals of the semi-synthetic opioid variety are now in ample supply, the option for actual opiates is easy and perhaps well scheduled/regulated and my anti-depressants are working very well. - there are bits of my heart that are all in tangles, all strung out, all jumbled up, all lust desire anger fear longing hate want shoving my tongue so far in ones mouth it would make them choke intense craziness but that is quiet. 2:19 a.m. - 2013-06-30 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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