msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- beckoned me ahead last weekend was amazing. there are many stories but, i realised today this is where i tell my secrets... so, here goes... the story of what wasn't.. - after a skinny dip in byron and dinner with rockstars night, i awoke to a proposition regarding travelling interstate to see some swedish folk pop band... who could say no?? we drove up the coast - amazing scenery, pick up a hitcher (the big tits chick from last night, her last name devine and everything about her saying just that) drove up the coast, so much indecision lesbian relationships are weird? or just this one? so. much. emotion. (not used to it) let's fast forward.................the zoo. stones. made up stories to old bukowski drunks {my favourite}. free entry. hair matches my dress {a bit sexy; he's in the band; bookmark that}. first aid kit (the band). they were beautiful. meet up. some shots. some mdma (just to keep me sober). kerbside - cool bar in brisbane........red john lennon glasses, a nice finger in an underpants-less stripy dress. he had matching hair - are you following??? the next day. this boy, this man. with family. with children. with a wife who has a boyfriend. with a skill, plays piano, sings, sings david bowie. with two boys, his children. come back there at 10:30am. he is with beer and i ask for one. he misses his wife. his eyes are all desperation and "am I still even HERE?!" to see a desperation and a need larger than mine both comforts and excites; imagination gone wild. - i want to remind him. remind myself of the life i live when i am black out switched off - poetry and drunk fuck and songs and bowie and queen and no such thing as children or boyfriends or polygamy or polyamory or nipples or matching hair or scars on legs or ex's or long lost friends or long lost lives - want to show him and i know that he'd show me. - brothers. - brothers of good friends lovers. - no no no. 12:15 a.m. - 2012-03-24 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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