msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Bored in the city I'm fucking bored. It's this horrible boredom thats come from too many days alone being all wrapped up in depression and anxiety, coming out the other side and feeling fuck, i don't know, deflated. i feel lonely. i have some friends here but although we are in the same city we may as well be in different states again - an hour on public transport for a beer and dinner too much to deal with. there are some nice people sitting in the lounge room but i don't know them and besides which they are HIS friends and i in some ways it would be too painful to sit with them without him. knowing the closeness, the mutuality. and honestly, this boredom is the worst because there isn't anything i actually WANT to be doing. i just feel completely deflated. not defeated though, which i guess is at least something. 9:12 p.m. - 2013-05-18 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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