msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Witching hours I'm very lonely. And being lonely in your 30's feels different to being lonely in your 20's? I'm worried all the time that I have cancer. Lung cancer, throat cancer, tongue cancer, breast cancer. My doctor told me today that mammograms aren't effective in women under 50, as until then breasts are full of glands and nodes instead of just being "fatty tissue". He also said that it's more likely I have a common sickness of the mind, common to "former addicts", a projection, a guilt, thinking your body must now be riddled with black rotting masses as a result of your former indulgences. If pain persists, I'll get an ultrasound. I am empty. There's no one to catch me if I fall, so I seem to have just. Stopped. Moving. 11:24 p.m. - 2017-02-15 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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