msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- it's too hard to row a boat using a periscope I have a web programming exam tomorrow that I'm not really prepared for. also my hair is purple again. that's what I did yesterday instead of studying. i'm telling myself i can't start studying today until i've finished my extra large black coffee and have had 3 cigarettes. so far i've smoked twice and i've got a couple mouthfuls of coffee left so i'll do this for a bit... - skyped with heroin eyes last night (that is a TERRIBLE nickname for him - he is so, so much more than that). i could hardly look at the screen, busy fumbling with bobby pins and looking down at the desk. it hurts a little to look at him. i can't decide if it's bad or good to talk with him. our conversations don't even come close to what they once were and i'm not really sure why. that's a lie - i think i know why. - most days i walk around in this state, planning little monologues, things i need to share and get off my chest, things i want us to discuss but when it comes down to putting them forward to him - when i'm face to virtual face with him my mind goes blank, i feel nauseous. - i have a daydream that when i leave here to move to melbourne, i will fly to Sydney for a couple of days - a week even. spend some time with people down there and then ask him to drive me to melbourne - perhaps stopping somewhere on the way to catch a Something For Kate gig in some regional town. it is months away. i will see how this plan stretches out. 8:48 a.m. - 2013-02-28 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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