msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- loneliness, truth, beauty & a picture of you ran into that boys housemates at the supermarket today. - getting dressed i had wondered if today would be the day that i would happen into him, how that would feel, how he would react, how i would react. - it started with one of my housemates spotting the girl, moving quickly. then later, after having a dance to the dodgy music playing through the speakers, i spotted the boy - tall, dark, gorgeous boy - dancing down the aisle's also. such an awkward encounter. i know that they know. and surely they know that. - the boy though, was nowhere to be seen. i think i know where he was though. - it has sent my thoughts a bit abuzz this afternoon. just lying in bed, reading a book about childhood same sex first kisses, hot wax on white breasts and collars around pregnant 16 year olds, i am missing sex. some boring masturbation. i am so sick of porn. walked outside for a cigarette and my housemates were listening to 'no aphrodisiac' which made me smile a bit. the song stopped and they started playing it, her on drums and her friend on guitar, singing quietly. not that funny anymore. 5:12 p.m. - 2012-02-23 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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