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damn your mood swings

it is bondi all over again.

i won't cut because i don't want ally'ds birthday tainted by that kind of shit

but fuck

this running, escaping, this drunkenness

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actually, being in this situation which reeks of old habits, there are a lot of old habits that iam choosing not to repeat right now

so good on me.

i will go to bed soon.

fingerpainting again.

is this a blackout i can actually feel?

fuck, if i could let go of myself

i talk to people who meditate, who run everyday, who see the sun rise

and i want that

it is old habits that tie me to my life right now

if i just let myself go i will fly off into nowhere?

and nothing will catch me and that would be ok????

3:39 a.m. - 2012-05-08

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