msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- damn your mood swings it is bondi all over again. i won't cut because i don't want ally'ds birthday tainted by that kind of shit but fuck this running, escaping, this drunkenness - actually, being in this situation which reeks of old habits, there are a lot of old habits that iam choosing not to repeat right now so good on me. i will go to bed soon. fingerpainting again. is this a blackout i can actually feel? fuck, if i could let go of myself i talk to people who meditate, who run everyday, who see the sun rise and i want that it is old habits that tie me to my life right now if i just let myself go i will fly off into nowhere? and nothing will catch me and that would be ok???? 3:39 a.m. - 2012-05-08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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