msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- - I just i had two coffees and then started drinking beer. 11:45am - 1:12pm. three to four hours later and i guess i'm half way, three quarter way to drunk. i have a job interview in the morning. i have a new house to be planning to move into. i have an assignment due on wednesday. i have shaking fingers. i have a constant burning in my guts and most mornings I wake up and am very aware of the fact that i am constantly poisoning myself. - i keep thinking about turning twenty-seven this year. about how i would go, if i did. how to minimise harm to others in the process. - i keep thinking a lot about summer. i miss being warm. i miss feeling so beautiful, and enlivened. sunshine, ocean, sweat. some things i remember so clearly, they make my fingers and my chest ache - very physical. - i'm so sick of booze and cigarettes. 4:54 p.m. - 2013-06-03 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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