msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- feel no shame for what you are buckley. burying myself in internet chat. pretend boyfriends. - i am wine soaked. two long necks and a bottle of wine tonight. i am geting back to wanting to drink before midday again. detox floats through my mind and i know i will likely be back there sometime again hopefully not soon. i am in no rush. addiction? will i really give my life to that? surely i am better than that? - perhaps i have written about this before mooing monday. after a couple of weeks of living here i mentioned to the girls that occasionally, sometimes during the night i would hear these weird animal noises they then told me that monday night was the night when cattle got taken to the showgrounds for the meat market the next day. so every monday, i guess i sit here in my bedroom locked in to whatever kind of thoughts listening to animals screaming out wondering if tomorrow they will be sold off to later be served up for dinners. - i don't fucking know, i am drunk, it's been a long and emotional day. 12:17 a.m. - 2012-05-08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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