msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Scrapbooking Thing I went to write: "if someone sees I'm in pain and doesn't care, they don't love me".realising this is the narrative of my whole life. I can make excuses.... People don't know what to do. People only ever try their best. But to a child those things don't mean anything, no matter how much an adult tries to explain away. To a child it just looks like lack of care, and lack of love, and so forever anything that slightly resembles that will draw all of the hate and pain that should probably be pushed into the original "perpetrators", but can't because of GUILT and a lot of other "adult" shit. Things I found in my notes, written and unsent a couple of days ago....... I thought I'd be able to post here just now but turns out I can't. Piecing things together. 9:37 p.m. - 2015-07-13 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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