msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i can see you struggling sometimes when i'm really stoned i become aware of how easy it would be to stop breathing. or rather, become aware that every now and then i have stopped breathing, and need to focus on starting again and continuing a rhythm with it for awhile. i guess that's why people so often when they drop and they're on their own. i mean fuck, if that happens when concious... kind of scary. i've never dropped when on my own, thankfully. the other night i found a woman who had overdosed in a bathroom stall at a pub. she was alive, i knew she was breathing as i could hear her snoring. i told the bar staff and they called paramedics. i felt a bit bad at first, like i should have left her alone instead of forcing a narcan shot on her and "ruining" her high. but i just had that breathing thing, need to be very focused on it at the moment, so that makes me feel a lot better about the steps i took and their consequent actions that night. hopefully if that ever happens to me, someone does the same. 10:51 a.m. - 2015-01-31 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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