msjessica's Diaryland Diary

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until there's not?

think i'm just engaging in needle fixation now because i've done 3 of those shots over the last 6 hours and i don't even think i feel anything now but MAN it just feels good to go through the motions - realising this whole 1 week without actually using will be the longest i've gone in a couple of months? how did this happen and when will i decide i've had enough? what steps do i take to actually.... stop? i mean, i guess i just STOP but there is just so much TIME

i have felt this whole time like i was in charge of this and was calling the shots but i am starting to recognise some

powerlessness

perhaps

maybe i'm just drunk and lonely, bit weirded out today, too much time inside, for my birthday i want a new love affair.

6:38 p.m. - 2014-11-04

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