msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- [noise] i think while i was away, the season shifted. i left in the disappearing foot trails of winter and came back and spring, Spring is slowly moving over and laying her sweet, balmy presence all over the place. - it didn't feel like this at first. - i came back and within 12 hours i picked up where i left off (not from thursday, but from monday night - from leaving notes and lists of emergency contacts within easy reach) straight back but with more fodder for my cannon - obsessed with peoples self obsession? i smoked pot and it gave me brutal, glistening insights, hard, chainsaws of truth but i don't trust them, i don't know. - i am SO confused. - i just don't know where to go next. on one hand, i have constant access to a loaded gun. i could probably just do this. i do not know what's holding me back, or at least, i can't bring myself to commit these things to text, to even think so clearly on them that they form into words. - everything feels very far away. 8:25 p.m. - 2014-09-28 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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