msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- friends in danger i was going to score but some things fell through and my friends friend OD'ed and died last night so she is understandably a bit shaken up and it's probably good that things fell through. - i've been thinking about hermitude (which actually i don't even think is a word) a lot lately. had this stupid experience on monday with a person, multiple people, just.... society, "scene", sub-culture - i don't even know. anyway, that coupled with just how i usually feel about people i got to thinking that obviously, the problem is with ME, not with others. i think a lot about being a person who stops trying and just hides out with books and mountains but realistically i like talking to people a lot and think you really need other people to grow so it's all silly, pointless musings that i guess i use to keep myself warm or whatever - blergh - i had some good dates with a guy but i think i scared him off. it's a shame. i think if my nerves hadn't gotten the better of me we actually would have really been.... able to have some kind of nice company/arrangement/something. 6:33 p.m. - 2014-07-11 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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