msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- bananas so tomorrow someone from the internet is coming up to visit. he's driving 6 hours. i'm nervous for a couple of different reasons. one is that i'm actually a bit scared of the potential intimacy of the whole thing. i haven't been...really, properly intimate with someone for a long time. obviously i've been with people, but no one who actually knew me or who i had a real personal connection with before getting into bed. i don't actually know if i'm ready for it. also, i think it will be a test in my....levels of superficiality. i'm not sure that this person really fits my usual mode of people i would be attracted to, but on an intellectual and personal level, i already find him very stimulating and engaging, intriguing. and so i am noticing that THAT is arousing. it will be interesting to see how i go with that face to face. should be an interesting weekend anyway. 4:32 p.m. - 2012-06-28 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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