msjessica's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It's a luscious mix of words and tricks really nice, sunny afternoon today. sitting on my back balcony with licquorice paper cigarettes, this shins and my 4th beer, cool breeze blowing my hair.... - life up here can be lovely. impromptu guitar lessons, board game nights with a stoned housemate, midnight cinnamon pancakes, beautiful people everywhere... so many people say life here is good if you let it be, it is what you make it. i get this very real sense of just 'coasting', just rolling with things i don't feel like i'm fighting anymore, and it feels amazing. i get job offers, i meet new people, i am drinking but it doesn't feel...disastrous. - there is some tension around me at times but it is not MY tension. i feel i am healing in this place. it is time out but still time spent moving forward. - saw that gorgeous one on friday night after a beautiful and erratic gig. we had a kind of proper conversation. i don't know if he still wants me. i think maybe there is something there but he is scared of crazy lady. i am too a bit. - i am going up north on tuesday, for two weeks. i'll be sad to be away from here for that long! there are always exciting things happening, the people are great, the parties are great, the music is great.... my house is beautiful, i love that there is a mix of my old life and a new one that i am cultivating. i love the ease in which i live in this house. while i'm away i may have a bit of a detox. i will have 5 days on my own which is a bit scary to be honest... no doubt you will be hearing all about it diary readers.... someone send me notes? i want to hear from you, know if anyone is out there?? 4:45 p.m. - 2012-03-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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